Well, as much as I thought Rett would be here by now, he's not. Which is ok, just gives me time to work on washing his clothes and packing to move. But I feel like a sitting duck...is that the old saying? I don't know. I just wait. Kraig is staying busy at the new house so I should stay busy at the old house, right? But I just want to sleep especially on rainy days. But I am determined to get stuff accomplished today. :) Wish me luck.
The reality of having a kid ANYTIME now is really starting to sink in. And the anxiety of when/where/how/what of it all is starting to get to me too. Every random back ache or hurt, I think...is that the start of labor haha or is this it? Is my water going to break now? So, I'm pretty anxious. It's funny, growing up playing ball - my coach/dad always said to always know your next play. You have to know where you are taking the ball before it gets to you so that's been my prayer that past week or so. I have asked and analyzed my "play." So, I have a "play" for just about every scenario. Especially with Kraig being at the new house for so many hours of the day. I try not to go out in public alone either. I am probably taking all of this to a new level but the last thing I want is to be at Target alone and my water break and I have to have the teenage store clerk help me to the hospital so I just avoid going by myself. :) I have my jeep all packed up ready to go too. We did that last week. We are overly prepared just way behind. But we will figure it out, TOGETHER.
Some other things I guess you could say that I am anxious or ready for is to fit into my clothes again. I have moved into Kraig's clothes, and wearing the same things over and over. I'm ready to wear my stuff again. I am ready to see my feet again. haha I know that sounds horrible but I am ready to hold our little guy and that means I will be able to see my feet. I was sitting funny in the jeep last night and when it was time to get out, I couldn't. Kraig had to come help me get straightened out so I could get out, so needless to say, I told him I was to be able to move like I used too. I know all this won't happen overnight but it is the little things that I look forward too. I look forward to eating sushi, drinking as much caffeine as I want, moving things that are heavy, and exercising. I am most ready to meet out little guy though. I can't wait to see him. All of these other things seem minor compared to getting hold Rett. I can't wait to see if he has a head full of hair which he better with the amount of heartburn I have had. I hope it is curly. I can't wait to see if he has the Givens' feet, Paulhamus mouth or blue eyes...or if he is left-handed. I am just anxious to meet him. :) I am even anxious for his brothers (the dogs) to meet him and see how they react. I'm sure they will love him. I sure hope so. I suppose it's the unknown of it all that I am most anxious about. My doctor is not concerned about anything right now so there is no need to be induced or schedule a c-section so we just wait and not knowing when it will happen puts me a tad on edge but we will make it through at least 2 more weeks, hopefully not longer but you never know, I hear boys are lazier when it comes to giving birth. I sure hope not. We will just have to wait and see.
So, until then....I will clean my house and try to be as productive as I can. And rest some in between. :) Maybe the next time I post, I will have wonderful pictures of Rett :) One can only hope.
The sitting duck,
Ashleigh
The reality of having a kid ANYTIME now is really starting to sink in. And the anxiety of when/where/how/what of it all is starting to get to me too. Every random back ache or hurt, I think...is that the start of labor haha or is this it? Is my water going to break now? So, I'm pretty anxious. It's funny, growing up playing ball - my coach/dad always said to always know your next play. You have to know where you are taking the ball before it gets to you so that's been my prayer that past week or so. I have asked and analyzed my "play." So, I have a "play" for just about every scenario. Especially with Kraig being at the new house for so many hours of the day. I try not to go out in public alone either. I am probably taking all of this to a new level but the last thing I want is to be at Target alone and my water break and I have to have the teenage store clerk help me to the hospital so I just avoid going by myself. :) I have my jeep all packed up ready to go too. We did that last week. We are overly prepared just way behind. But we will figure it out, TOGETHER.
Some other things I guess you could say that I am anxious or ready for is to fit into my clothes again. I have moved into Kraig's clothes, and wearing the same things over and over. I'm ready to wear my stuff again. I am ready to see my feet again. haha I know that sounds horrible but I am ready to hold our little guy and that means I will be able to see my feet. I was sitting funny in the jeep last night and when it was time to get out, I couldn't. Kraig had to come help me get straightened out so I could get out, so needless to say, I told him I was to be able to move like I used too. I know all this won't happen overnight but it is the little things that I look forward too. I look forward to eating sushi, drinking as much caffeine as I want, moving things that are heavy, and exercising. I am most ready to meet out little guy though. I can't wait to see him. All of these other things seem minor compared to getting hold Rett. I can't wait to see if he has a head full of hair which he better with the amount of heartburn I have had. I hope it is curly. I can't wait to see if he has the Givens' feet, Paulhamus mouth or blue eyes...or if he is left-handed. I am just anxious to meet him. :) I am even anxious for his brothers (the dogs) to meet him and see how they react. I'm sure they will love him. I sure hope so. I suppose it's the unknown of it all that I am most anxious about. My doctor is not concerned about anything right now so there is no need to be induced or schedule a c-section so we just wait and not knowing when it will happen puts me a tad on edge but we will make it through at least 2 more weeks, hopefully not longer but you never know, I hear boys are lazier when it comes to giving birth. I sure hope not. We will just have to wait and see.
So, until then....I will clean my house and try to be as productive as I can. And rest some in between. :) Maybe the next time I post, I will have wonderful pictures of Rett :) One can only hope.
The sitting duck,
Ashleigh
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