Well, we are down to the wire now, folks!
Just got back from the doctor visit, we go back Tuesday for the ultrasound to make sure Rett and I look good. Then, we will talk about scheduling his arrival probably for the end of next week. Needless, to say, I'm scared out of my mind. :) And in all reality, I know it could happen before that but the unknown for me is almost better than the known. I don't know. Either way, we are going to be responsible for a real human in a little over a week. The Lord sure does trust us. Goodness!
My last post was all about things that I am ready for...well, I thought of some more...
~I'm ready to be able to wear my wedding rings again.
~I'm ready to not be so hot all the time.
~ I'm ready to not be so puffy (swollen).
~ I'm ready to help on the house.
These are just a few. On the note of the house...it is coming along very nicely. The Lord's time of Rett couldn't be any better. He knew that if we had Rett any earlier, this house project would be put on the back burner so I am thankful for the extra time. It is really starting to come together. We have a hardwood guy coming tomorrow, the carpet guy coming to measure tomorrow, the bathrooms should be almost if not completely done tomorrow so the hope is to be moving in and having Rett all at the same time :) Not really, Rett will come before the move probably. We will just have to see how it all goes down.
Now, back to the reality of being responsible for a real human kid. Every morning, I wake and thank the Lord that we made it through the night. I don't know why the nights are so much harder than the days but I just always think of the "what if's" at night and get scared. Which it shouldn't be any different than during the day but for some reason it is. I guess maybe because I'm more aware during the day, I don't know. O well, I can't say that the Lord hasn't had His hand on this whole pregnancy because He has even down to making sure my dad was in the country for his arrival. I know that the Lord cares about Rett even in the womb and it has been so neat to see this whole process transpire. I'm encouraged by the fact that I serve a God that loves and cares for me even when I am terrified. He holds me when I am fretting in the middle of the night over the "what if's" and lets me know that everything is ok and will be ok. I'm thankful for those promises.
In the Bible, "Do not be afraid" is repeated 365 times. One for each day of the week...not a coincidence in my case. I have needed each of those commands this whole process and even more so the last week knowing we were down to days/weeks. And I know I will continue to claim these scriptures after Rett is here because then we have to make sure he's breathing and living. I am clinging to the scriptures that tell me that the Lord is with me and will not leave me because I know I cannot do this alone. So, I lean on His faithful love and Kraig's stable mind/heart and know that will will get through all of this. So, although I am terrified of the upcoming weeks, I am excited and anxious to see the Lord continue to work through Kraig and me and through the life of our child.
It is going to be fun.
Just got back from the doctor visit, we go back Tuesday for the ultrasound to make sure Rett and I look good. Then, we will talk about scheduling his arrival probably for the end of next week. Needless, to say, I'm scared out of my mind. :) And in all reality, I know it could happen before that but the unknown for me is almost better than the known. I don't know. Either way, we are going to be responsible for a real human in a little over a week. The Lord sure does trust us. Goodness!
My last post was all about things that I am ready for...well, I thought of some more...
~I'm ready to be able to wear my wedding rings again.
~I'm ready to not be so hot all the time.
~ I'm ready to not be so puffy (swollen).
~ I'm ready to help on the house.
These are just a few. On the note of the house...it is coming along very nicely. The Lord's time of Rett couldn't be any better. He knew that if we had Rett any earlier, this house project would be put on the back burner so I am thankful for the extra time. It is really starting to come together. We have a hardwood guy coming tomorrow, the carpet guy coming to measure tomorrow, the bathrooms should be almost if not completely done tomorrow so the hope is to be moving in and having Rett all at the same time :) Not really, Rett will come before the move probably. We will just have to see how it all goes down.
Now, back to the reality of being responsible for a real human kid. Every morning, I wake and thank the Lord that we made it through the night. I don't know why the nights are so much harder than the days but I just always think of the "what if's" at night and get scared. Which it shouldn't be any different than during the day but for some reason it is. I guess maybe because I'm more aware during the day, I don't know. O well, I can't say that the Lord hasn't had His hand on this whole pregnancy because He has even down to making sure my dad was in the country for his arrival. I know that the Lord cares about Rett even in the womb and it has been so neat to see this whole process transpire. I'm encouraged by the fact that I serve a God that loves and cares for me even when I am terrified. He holds me when I am fretting in the middle of the night over the "what if's" and lets me know that everything is ok and will be ok. I'm thankful for those promises.
In the Bible, "Do not be afraid" is repeated 365 times. One for each day of the week...not a coincidence in my case. I have needed each of those commands this whole process and even more so the last week knowing we were down to days/weeks. And I know I will continue to claim these scriptures after Rett is here because then we have to make sure he's breathing and living. I am clinging to the scriptures that tell me that the Lord is with me and will not leave me because I know I cannot do this alone. So, I lean on His faithful love and Kraig's stable mind/heart and know that will will get through all of this. So, although I am terrified of the upcoming weeks, I am excited and anxious to see the Lord continue to work through Kraig and me and through the life of our child.
It is going to be fun.
Prayers and thoughts all the way from China!
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